• September 18, 2015 /  Myeloma

    Just a quick update. Unfortunately when I saw my consultant last week, my levels, which were 2 months old, had risen (Kappa 465). My ratio was stupidly high as my lambdas were, as always, very low, but we don’t take so much notice of them.

    My Leicester consultant has passed me back to Angela, my Northampton one, while she handles the next phase of treatment. Basically this involves me going back on Revlimid and Dex (steroids) to try and get my levels down. Then, if that works, I will go back to Leicester to have one or more donor plasma injections. I wasn’t 100% donor cells, which can be more protective, so this could ‘bump’ me up.

    There are possible issues in that they could cause graft versus host disease, although that can also fight the disease! Bit of a balance there!

    I started the new regime yesterday – 10 mg of Revlimid once a day for 21 days and a week rest. 40mg dex once a week. Already fingers are swelling up, but on the other hand I feel fairly active! Expecting the usual puffy face. I tolerated this regime well last time, and the Revlimid is at a low dose for the moment (I was on 25 last time). However, having had the transplant, the side effects may be different.

    Bit of a blow, but having to just get on with it. It’s complicated by the fact that the Cancer Fund, which deals with rarer conditions and drugs, is being cut for the second time. As I’m on Revlimid, which is being cut for some people, I should continue to get it, but if it doesn’t work, then one of the other possible drugs won’t be available. There are other drugs, but hopefully the Revlimid will work. I have been on it before, and came out of remission after about 18 months or so, so hopefully I haven’t built up a resistance to it.

    I’m also having a colonoscopy soon to check out my polyps and also to make sure I haven’t got GVHD in my bowels, as I’ve been having some digestive issues. Can’t wait!!

    Not much else to report. I’ll try to post a bit more regularly on how it’s going.

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  • August 5, 2015 /  Myeloma

    Always with me, when I’m not having treatment I get down periods. I don’t think it’s uncommon. You fight your way through treatment, you are left exhausted, with various niggly problems and you are scared about disease returning. I would just like to enjoy this time, but it seems my brain and other circumstances won’t let me.

    A friend of mine (my daughter’s partner’s mum) who has lung cancer and secondary brain tumours, has been deteriorating after an amazing 3 years of treatment and stubborness. The death of others always makes us consider our own mortality. We have talked about it quite bluntly a few times. She has prepared everything practically now, and I think the illness and drugs are making her sleepy and forgetful about what is happening, so I hope she has a peaceful end.

    I had another consultant’s appt. She reports on the levels from 2 months ago, because she decides at the consultation what blood tests need to be done. Bit annoying. But I think that she looks at the results as they come in, so anything abnormal would be dealt with. Basically my Ig immune levels were low end of normal, though she couldn’t locate my T cell level on our computer system – she’s from Leicester.

    My light chains (measure of disease) were, disappointingly, a bit up from 8 to 21, but they can vary up and down, so they will just monitor them. Trouble is, it sits in your mind. My ratio of kappa to lambda (for those in the know) was, as always, way off. It is basically never normal as my lambda is always very low. Nobody can explain it, so we tend to just look at my kappa readings. I don’t worry about it, as it seems to have always been that way, even in remission.

    For the second time recently I have a sore throat on the right side and am snuffly and tired. No temperature – could be hay fever. My last bout a month ago lasted about 5 days, so hoping this will be the same. It seems to come with a headachy feelingĀ  and a general stiffness around my neck.

    I also have a sore mouth and lips – this is pretty constant, but I get irritable when I get mouth/tongue ulcers. I don’t know if it’s GVHD (graft versus host disease) causing this. What with that and the throat, eating is not enjoyable atm.

    Lastly I had to take myself to eye casualty last week, as I suddenly got flashing in one eye and large floaters. After a long wait (they mislaid my paperwork and didn’t notice until I asked) I was told that due to age and short-sightedness the gel in my eye has ‘collapsed’ as they put it. Luckily there was no retinal detachment or tear, so I have to put up with some flashing (has lessened a bit) and one particularly annoying floater. Apparently you learn to live with it. I will keep an eye (!) on this as it is possible to suffer ocular GVHD, although I don’t think this is it.

    This is a very grumbly blog. I would like to be heroic about it all, but it’s too much effort! I can hardly pull myself out of bed in the morning, so it’s good Bob is here atm to get me up. I have told him to be very strict with me (50 Shades of Green Tea) – he makes me move rooms to have my morning cuppa!

    On the plus side I have done quite a lot of tidying and paperwork, and we have had a couple of trips out. I usually cheer up a bit then.

    Hopefully when I next write I will be feeling better. I am working on it!


  • June 10, 2015 /  Myeloma

    I was freed from hospital on Monday after what proved a light bout of shingles. I have been given a short course of valaciclovir and will then return to probably 3 months of aciclovir. Valaciclovir has some advantages – see http://www.medicinenet.com/valacyclovir-oral/article.htm. Today I discussed the whole thing with my consultant. She said that when people have been taken off prophylactic aciclovir about 40% will get shingles in the next couple of months. Nobody knows quite why this happens. But if I take another course and then come off it in a few months it shouldn’t happen again.

    As it stands it wasn’t much of an issue for me, except the fact I endured 8 days of isolation. Maybe people need to be warned though, as it can be nasty for people who are immunocompromised and the more quickly it can be caught the better.

    I paced about a lot trying to keep my muscles fit, and it seems to have worked fairly well as yesterday and today I have done my usual walking, although am very tired afterwards. I do think that all patients on visits of more than a few days and who aren’t immobilised should be given suggestions for gentle exercises, some of which can be done seated. We had a small foot pedal machine at Leicester, which was helpful.

    I had a new round of blood tests today, including a free light chain one (shows my disease level) and also my immune system levels. I won’t know the results for a while, unless there is a problem. My next immunoglobulin drip will be here in Northampton next Monday, instead of Leicester, which will be very helpful.

    Not sure if anyone from Northampton reads my blog, but I have to say that the staff were all great while I was in – from cleaners to consultants. They are working under tremendous pressure and staff shortages, but are always cheerful and helpful.

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  • June 2, 2015 /  Myeloma

    Well I was only saying to a friend last week that I hadn’t had a spell in hospital since last December… but here I am. Started last Saturday when I started scratching an itch on my right trunk to the side and it was quite sore. I had been feeling vaguely unwell for a couple of days – very tired. So when I looked a saw a small patch of shingle I knew I had to act fast.

    I had been taken off aciclovir tablets only a couple of months ago, having been on them for years, so I was probably vulnerable. As it was I immediately took one of my remaining tablets and got myself off to hospital – I was lucky as Northampton had a bed available in the cancer ward.

    As I’m immunocompromised I have to have IV aciclovir for maybe 5 to 7 days – a really hefty dose 3 times a day. Also I’m in isolation, as I could infect a patient who hasn’t had chicken pox. The med is very strong and sometimes it hurts as it goes in. The flushing afterwards is really painful. Apparently local inflammation is common in up to 10% of cases. I had to have the first cannula out when the back of my hand swelled up and I started to leak aciclovir!

    Apart from that my spots have not spread and there hasn’t been too much pain. It’s in the same area as before. Last time I was in agony, but I have more of a generalised aching this time. The drug has made me a bit queasy. Just beware that in big doses it can damage the kidneys and liver, so drink plenty if you have to take it. Also, rarely it can cause mental problems like hallucinations, so if you start feeling a bit weird, then tell somebody straight away.

    I have taken the opportunity to get the place where my line was to be checked. It was dug out hurriedly when I had an infection before Xmas (though it probably wasn’t the cause) and left a scar which seemed to heal OK. But for some weeks it has been red and a bit sore and lumpy round the site. So off to x-ray at some stage to make sure nothing was left in there, like the cuff.

    Will update again when I’m let out!

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  • May 5, 2015 /  Myeloma

    The last few weeks have seen quite a bit of good news. My light chains are in the normal range and my IgG immunity is normal, although reliant on regular IV top ups of immunoglobulin. I guess I am feeling a bit better, and have done a few things to get me out of the house now my immune system has improved. Bob has taken me to the library, garden centre and town in the last two or three weeks – that doesn’t sound exciting, but apart from hospital visits and short walks locally, I’ve not been out of the house since my transplant last July.

    There are still some issues. I have to confess to not really understanding my immune system that well. My haem consultant said I could go ahead with going out, eating more widely etc. However, my immunologist, a few weeks later, was more cautious. My IV drip only deals with one aspect of my immunity and there are other parts of my immune system which are still very low. They have mostly been growing slowly, but I am still vulnerable in some ways. So all a bit confusing. As I am naturally cautious, and obsessed with hand washing etc, I hope to remain OK.

    Also, I have the odd paraprotein floating about, although my immunologist said that could happen after a transplant and not to worry.

    The immunologist is writing to Northampton to try to fix up my drips there, which would save a lot of hassle.

    I am investigating my vitamin levels too and had tests for Vit D, B12, Folate and Iron. I had slightly low levels of Vit D which is very common with lots of people, especially in the winter. As I can’t sunbathe (higher risk of skin cancer) I have started taking a low dose to top me up. I am also slightly anaemic. The doctor advised a better diet, but as a non-meat eater, I am taking a liquid iron (in a sachet of water) and vit C supplement. The B12 and folate were fine. Bob and I are trying to improve our diet as he had high blood pressure (on tablets) and borderline high cholesterol.

    We’ve done the dentist too and will be going to the opticians next weekend (I am at higher risk of cataracts now). So covering all our bases!

    I tend to think that following a transplant we need more specific advice on food and exercise – not just don’t eat this, or eat that for example.

    I have just visited my clinical psychologist who is always very helpful, especially in crystallising my problems and the way forward. I tend to feel vulnerable when getting better, paradoxically. There’s always the fear of the disease returning. Also, people think if you look better, you are back to normal, when actually I’m still very tired, and suffer lots of irritating side effects. I am also my own worst enemy as when my energy returns I tend to think (as teachers do) that it should be spent on doing a variety of tasks, be they round the house, or in my case, things related to union and political work. So I have a long ‘to do’ list and none of it is ‘me time’. Seeing Annie always helps me to talk all this through and maybe alter my behaviour.

    So, rather than rattle on I am going to sign off now and take it easy for a while!


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  • March 17, 2015 /  Myeloma

    Well things are much the same as the last time I wrote. I’ve had a couple more immunoglobulin sessions, which do wash me out a bit for a couple of days. I have no idea where my immune system is atm as they don’t do regular blood tests, but am hoping I get some idea from my haem consultant in a couple of weeks.

    Last week was very busy with immunoglobulin IV at Leics General on Monday, PEG out Tuesday at Leics Infirmary and my pentamidine inhalation on Thurs at Northampton. Exhausting. The PEG removal was a bit unpleasant as the have to pull the plastic bit which was inside up your throat, but it was over and done with in a flash and I had sedation which helped a bit. No stitches are involved – you just get a dressing on the outside and it heals up by itself – it has almost closed now. However, I do look as if I have two tummy buttons, one above the other!! Now I need to get rid of all the paraphernalia like the pump and the tubes, back to the company. Lovely not to have to flush twice a day.

    I am still amazingly tired, which I just hate. Also, the aching muscles and joint pains, mostly in my legs and ankles is quite bad quite a bit of the time. It has kept me awake, despite painkillers and walking can be painful. How people with worse chronic pain manage I don’t know, but it makes me irritable. I’ll need to ask about it next time I see my consultant. It can be GVHD, but can also just be normal apparently. It comes and goes from one leg to the other and sometimes affects both. If anyone can help with this, do write! Other bits of me are tender like my hips, but not as bad as the leg pains.

    I also have very tender boobs atm! That might be a side effect of one of the drugs – I need to go thru and look to see which. I know I saw it somewhere.

    I had a short letter from my donor! I thought I had to wait for a year to write, but it is nearly a year since he was contacted. He’s a German man in his 20s. I’ll be writing back via my hospital – I don’t know his personal details. Wonderful that donors across the world can help people like me.


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  • February 18, 2015 /  Myeloma

    Well quite a while since I last wrote. I managed to be at home for Xmas – Bob did both the cake – delicious- and the Xmas dinner (I just did the sprouts!), and the kids and their partners had Xmas dinner with the other parents and then came for an orgy of present swapping and a buffet in the evening.

    I have started my immunoglobulin IV at Leicester General – got hopelessly lost on our first appt! They up the delivery rate very slowly and I was told a lady had, very unusually, had a bad reaction very recently, which had obviously frightened everyone. It probably wasn’t the best time to tell me that, as I spent the first session wondering if I was suddenly going to keel over, but luckily I didn’t. I didn’t seem to have any side effects except being rather more tired than usual, though tiredness is a default state with me, especially after long trips. I’ve had 2 sessions so far.

    Once I am fully ‘loaded’ it looks as if I might be able to have my IV at Northampton every three weeks, which will be great, as my my haem consultant appts are being moved to N’ton too. So I will only need to travel to Leicester if I am ill, or if I have to have procedures.

    My own immune system has apparently shown some signs of life. I have been taken off my immunosuppressant (Ciclosporin) and am down to 2 mg of steroids a day. However, my paraproteins have shown a rise. This does not necessarily mean a return of the disease, but they need to keep an eye on them. I should be having a free light chain test next visit so we’ll get a better idea.

    I was put on Azithromycin (antibiotic) before I started my IV, and didn’t like it much. I happened to mention that my hearing felt as if it was that sensation you get before they pop, and she immediately took me off them, so watch out for that if you are prescribed them. You can become deaf. I’m now on a lowish dose of Amoxycillin.

    Generally I’m not too bad. I still suffer tiredness. This is partly as I weaned myself slowly off zopiclone, and now can’t sleep until about 2am. My haem consultant warned me against the ‘push too hard and then collapse’ syndrome which happens with lots of patients. I walk every day and try to keep active. Since Xmas I have gradually developed very achy muscles and joints. It started with my knees and now affects much of my body, but it makes me limp sometimes, as my calves are quite bad. I’ve had to take paracetamol a few times. It’s worse in the early morning and evening. I gather transplant GVHD can cause this, and I have been coming down off the immunosuppressants, so it could be that. Will be raising it with my consultant next week.

    I also have a sore mouth, lips and tongue and nothing seems to work on them. I get a red and sometimes itchy rash on my neck and my skin sometimes flakes very badly. However, these are all relatively minor, though they do make me grumble!

    My PEG should be coming out in the next few weeks. I am eating more, though have lost a bit of weight. After 40 years of not eating meat (do eat fish) I have tried my first bit of meat – a rasher of bacon. My consultant said I needed more protein to build my muscles and I kept having weird dreams about getting to the serving area in a canteen and finding they had run out of food!!! I can’t eat much cheese since my gallbladder came out, I find nuts indigestible, beans too windy and there is only so much fish and egg you can eat. My digestive system obviously wasn’t sure about the bacon, but I will keep trying. There are meats like chicken I just don’t want. I don’t need much as we all eat too much protein anyway. I was quite surprised that the bacon, which was supposed to be good quality, was not as tasty as I remembered.

    The other problem I have is memory loss and lack of concentration. Both my long and short term memory seem very bad, though short term is worst. I can still do a fair number of University Challenge questions, but am hopeless at programmes like Only Connect and Countdown. Not that I was brilliant before! I can’t do the Guardian quick crossword and have really struggled with cryptics. Names are beyond me, and I have many ‘senior’ moments. Bob and I would be stuck without the ‘pause’ on the TV as he’s always struggled with plots, not being a novel reader, and now I can’t do them either. In fact he’s better then me now. Also, my written work is full of typos and I have forgotten some of my spellings, so forgive my mistakes! Just hope the brain cells will return.

    To finish with – I was very sorry to find out that Mike Marqusee, the writer and poet, who had MM too, died recently. His poems about having MM in his collection ‘Street Music’ are well worth reading by patients, carers and medical staff. http://www.mikemarqusee.com/



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  • December 31, 2014 /  Myeloma

    Well sorry everyone that I haven’t written sooner. When I came out of hospital there was so much to do for Xmas in a short space of time.

    I had my bronchoscopy. It was not a good day. To start with the ambulance to take me to Glenfield did not turn up so the time for my bronchoscopy came and went. The service is privatised (Arriva) and does not seem organised. At one stage they were saying that as I came from Northampton, one of their ambulances should take me!! Eventually after wasting a lot of nurse’s time on the phone I was given an emergency ambulance. We had to rush as Glenfield said I had to be there by half two (my appt had been 1pm), so I didn’t use a wheelchair and tottered down with the help of an ambulance man.

    I had the procedure pretty quickly. The sedation did not really work. The most painful part was getting a tube up my nose – my nostrils are narrow so they tried both sides and it really hurt. Once the tube was down there I was OK – they anaesthetise your throat and lower down, so the worst that happens is you cough as they spray fluid into your lungs. This coughing lasts a day or so. Also your nose can be sore. They kept saying my heart rate was high, but this was hardly surprising considering the rush and the pain. Anyway they did it all quickly.

    Then there was a similar problem with ambulances – I was ready for an ambulance by about 3.30 and but did not get back until 8! I had to wait in a cold outpatient ward with a nurse who will get time in lieu, so there was a cost implication. I was exhausted, but there were no wheelchairs so had to walk back up to the ward. I did talk to the ambulance men who said Arriva did not have enough ambulances and the turnover of staff was very high.

    Anyway, thankfully my results were negative, otherwise I would have had to go into hospital every day for a month to have an hour’s drip for a fungal infection.

    I did not resume my PEG when I got home, and have been eating better, but my digestive system is pretty shell shocked and Xmas food did not really agree with me! I am trying to have some bland stuff now.

    I have also had an appt with immunology, as I have no antibodies at all, so my immune system is non-existent. Upshot of that was I am on a strong antibiotic atm as I’ve had all these infections, while they decide what to do. I can be taught how to inject myself with whatever it is that will improve my immune system – immunoglobulin? Or I can have it IV every three weeks. There are practical problems atm as Bob can’t take lots of days off, but we’ll cross that bridge when we come to it. My next appt is Feb I think, so another month or more stuck in the house.

    However, we had a good Xmas and are ticking along. I have plenty to do here, especially paper sorting – the study looks as if a bomb has hit it!

    All the best to you all and especially everyone who has sent messages and also all those with myeloma and their carers.


  • December 8, 2014 /  Myeloma

    Well since I last wrote I have had two more stays in hospital – I am in Leicester atm and was in Northampton. The gap between visits was small. I was very nauseated and going to the loo a lot with the first visit and couldn’t make the journey up to Leicester. However, Northampton don’t have the facilities and knowledge that Leicester do (one of my tests was sent to the wrong place and the result hadn’t come back before I left) and they didn’t really get to the bottom of things.

    I stupidly tried to go back up to the previous amount of feed on my PEG, but it was too quick and I had stomach problems. The dietician and consultant agreed I could reduce the amount. However, I struggled with even this amount. Then last Monday night I was very shivery, was sick and had a high temperature. Managed to make the journey here.

    At first they thought I had a line infection, so a registrar took the decision to take my Hickman line out, which may have been wise but has caused huge problems as it was very difficult then to put cannulas in. I needed 2 and it took 9 or 10 goes by several people to get them in. One person was really poor at it and tried 4 times before getting it in. However they both had to be removed as they didn’t work for more than a short while and one ‘blew’ the vein. Another worked OK for a while (I only needed one by this stage) and then had to go as it started bleeding. The last one on the back of my hand was working beautifully until I staggered a bit getting off the loo and knocked it out. Atm I have nothing – someone is coming to put one in this afternoon, but where it will go I don’t know as all my usual veins are covered in needle marks – look like a drug user!

    The next theory was that I had a chest infection – the consultants heard crackles in my lungs, although I wasn’t coughing. I was told it was pneumonia of a sort. I have been told I have to have a bronchoscopy this week – another nasty procedure to look forward to (tube down throat into lungs). Hoping the sedation will knock me out, but not too hopeful. It will be at another Leicester hospital. I have been taking a strong antibiotic, which they have just stopped, and a very strong anti-fungal. They give you the anti-fungal just for 10 mins the first time, as the possible side effects can be severe. Then wait half an hour while you imagine you have all the side effects and then you get an hour’s worth. I do feel very queasy afterwards, but can cope with it.

    Atm I seem to have a head cold of sorts.

    I had given the PEG a miss, but the day following a restart with only a small amount I had incredibly severe nausea and spent the day retching from waking at 6 until around 11pm when it began to ease. The consultant said that PEG feeding and strong drugs don’t mix, so I have taken myself off the feeds altogether atm and will try just to eat more, but gradually. I am trying a bit of cooked lunch today! Not feeling like it, and it always comes very early, but once I start eating I can usually manage a bit.

    I am in the bone marrow unit, so very privileged! The rooms are big and the nurses lovely. They are woefully stretched. I wrote to Leicester about staffing after my stay on ward 41 and they wrote back admitting there were three occasions during my stay of staff not being up to complement, but there was a lot of waffle and mention of a staff review, which staff are very cynical about. Patients don’t like to ring for the staff – I find myself saving up things I need, so I don’t have to pester them for mundane things. They need a nursing assistant on the ward at all times to do those things and provide general support. I will be writing again! It is important.

    You will have got the impression that it’s been a bit tough, and it has been, but I seem to be able to cope with hospital a bit better now and on days when I feel better have generally read, watched rubbish TV, done work on the computer etc. I guess at some stage I will start to improve – people still say it’s early days and it could take a year.


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  • November 3, 2014 /  Myeloma

    Sorry it’s been a while. A couple of weeks ago I had a short (Fri-Sun) stay in hospital – they wanted to test for c.difficile after my poo went green!! Tests were negative and they really needed the room, so out I came! It seems a bit two steps forward and one back atm. I’ve had an appt today and though the graft has fully taken and my neutrafils are normal (can fight off bacterial infections OK) my immune system is much lower than it should be by now so I am very vulnerable to viral infections. Leicester are arranging some sort of injections to help protect me – more info on that when it starts. I feel a bit paranoid about the low levels, but apart from hospital visits I don’t go into any public places and Bob has had his flu jab which should take effect soon.

    I had a bone marrow biopsy – you may remember from previous posts that they have not been able to get any fluid or core from me for quite a while. This time after a lot of struggling they got a bit of fluid but no core. Still bruised after two weeks! However, the fluid looked fairly positive on the disease front and for those in the know, my paraproteins levels are good.

    I am still pretty weedy although I can walk further now so can be out for about 15 mins or so if I take it slowly. My appetite is not brilliant, so I need to try and get a bit more down me, especially protein. Still being fed through the stomach tube at night.

    Other medical niggles are things like sore and watery eyes, sensitive mouth, tongue and skin generally. More annoyingly I get low moods on and off – probably related to coming down on the steroids, but possibly also being quite isolated in the house all day I guess, though I am fairly good in my own company and have lists of things I need to do. Just a question of fighting through – I do some exercise or a specific task.

    My hair is just starting to come back – looks very grey. Unfortunately I am also affected by hirsutism from the drugs, so I have definite sideburns and am fighting a losing battle against a moustache and beard!! Perhaps I should raise money for Movember! Can’t shave or cream it off so I am putting up with it. It’s not the most important problem I have to face.

    So just plodding along at home, interspersed with occasional hospital visits.